~Forgive my babbling. I never meant to make my second post a classic teenage dilemma but I needed to vent~
Not of course to say that we as males don't cause just as many problems, we do I'm sure. Moving on though. I don't believe I can share my problems on this blog as some of the readers are my friends in real life and I want to keep my private life just that. Private.
The problem without revealing too much can be stated as such. "How can I tell the girl how I feel when it will only cause her pain?". Of course though by not telling her I cause myself more pain. A constant ache that burns my chest whenever I think about it even now as I type I have to restrain myself from picking up the phone and telling her how I feel. If I tell her though we can't be together so I'll gain nothing. Once I tell her we'll never be as close as we are now. So I stand to lose everything and gain nothing. Painful. If I really do care for her though I'll have to endure...
A thought just occurred to me though. If I can endure this then it will prove the strength of my feelings and if I succumb to my desires then my feelings for her aren't as strong as they should be.
So what do I do? I do nothing. For that is the smartest thing I can do. Ironic, no?
Well I will tell you this from experience. Pain is easier when you get it over with. Think of a bandaid, the older it gets sticking on your arm or where ever the harder it is to take off. I went through a failed relationship for seven years becuase I could not bring myself to "hurt" the person. It was torture to me and I thought I could bear it as long as she was ok. I was wrong, we spent our lives just going through the motions in a relationship that should have ended way sooner than it did. I made the break and we are now fine. The sooner you get the hurt out of the way the sooner the healing can start.
ReplyDeleteAwe. You should tell her. I'm sure that whatever pain that comes by you telling her the truth will pass. :p
ReplyDeleteI would but if you knew the full story then you wouldn't be telling me to.
ReplyDeleteTell you the truth... the 'whole story' doesn't matter. Tell her -- she deserves to know. You could wait until 'tomorrow' comes but it's never guaranteed... besides... wouldn't you hate for something to happen to take away any and every chance you have for telling her? People get hurt no matter what you do... sometimes they're hurt more by what you don't do.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes... it took me two weeks to make that sound logical...
Hello. I came across your blog, just looking for bloggers closer to my age so that I can relate to posts and such. Well, I definetly relate to this. Even if I am a little late on this blog post.
ReplyDeleteThis is so hard! And, like the post above me says, people getting hurt is inevitable. & then what? We're left with "what if's"...
I can not offer advice, because I'm in a similar position. I'm sure you don't need it anyway; it's hard to believe one writes blogs something simply to vent about it. But it happens.
I hope everything works out for you.